The reason.

Okay, as I said I will explain why Colorado was kinda suck.

Basically, all who know me know that the reason I went to Colorado was to see the girl that I had had a huge crush on for a couple of years. Well, I had told her how I felt a few weeks prior to going out there and was handed back the inevitable "I don't feel the same way" line, so thus I was pretty much heartbroken, but was not really expecting anything different. After this little experience, and the awkwardness I felt that had to be there, I said maybe I shouldn't go out there, but she insisted it wouldn't be weird, and I should go. So I relented, and decided to go anyway... mainly with a false hope in my mind that maybe she would change her mind when I got there. (MISTAKE) so anyway, I went there... and of course things were "fine" at first, but then she started telling me about this other guy she was wanting to date, and all the details... so I took it in stride and tried to have a good time. Long story short though, I was there 4 days, and in those 4 days, she spent maybe a total of 4-5 hours with me, and at least 12-20 hours out with or talking to this new guy. Needless to say I felt pretty much like shit, and the thing that tipped me over the edge was the fact that she had 2 true days off while I was going to be there, and on the first real day off we were possibly going to do something together, she slept all day, then went out with the new guy ALL night, and didn't do anything with me basically. To top it all off though, the next morn when she came back in (at 7am), and I had gotten up at around 5am (my sleep schedule was off because of the time changes), she didn't even say good morning or greet me at all, and went straight to bed. So I decided then that I had to leave, mainly because I was having a HORRIBLE time and was feeling jealous of this new guy, even though I shouldn't be, such that she isn't my girlfriend. So I left her a "Dear Jane" note saying why I couldn't stay, and bolted out as fast as I could go... drove a good 1100 miles in one day, from 7am - 12am pretty much, and had to stop in St. Louis, because I was getting kind of tired :)

I did enjoy the rest of my vacation here in Loogootee surprisingly though, since I basically just sat around and loafed the entire time. Plus, the drive to and from colo. was pretty cool just seeing all the different states. I do not recommend driving through Nebraska though, it pretty much sucks ass.

So anyway, things between her and I now are pretty weird, we talked 2 times since I left I think, and we are supposedly back to being "friends" but I haven't talked to her for about 2 weeks now, and i really kinda don't want to. She tried calling today apparently while I was at work, but I left my phone here at home, so I didn't get it. I will probably try to call her sometime tomorrow, but I really don't know why... I think deep down I am kind of hoping she will end up hating me and eventually not call anymore, because I can't stop feeling the way I do about her, plus avoiding the situation entirely and playing games and watching TiVo seems to make me forget about how much it hurts temporarily(still!)

Also, because of this, I hit possibly a new sadness level... I actually went to eharmony, and filled out the profile thing again(3rd time), and was accepted... unlike the first time... and actually PAID for a 3 month subscription! WTF!? It's insanely expensive, but for the love of god, if this doesn't show how utterly desperate I am to forget about my feelings, I don't know what does! :)

One last thing, sorry about the length of this post... but hey, drama is interesting! ^_^

My new job!

Well, I am at my new job today... where I have full internet access while working. YAY! Seeing as how it is quite boring at the moment, I thought I would throw a quick post up just to let people know I still exist. Woot.

On a separate note, I am currently playing two MMORPGs off and on now, WoW still being one, and I recently got into City of Heroes. It was only 20 bucks at Wal-Mart, and I had heard quite a bit of good stuff... PLUS the ability to be a superhero is just a damned cool concept by itself anyway. So I quite enjoy CoH right now, it is surprisingly fun, although not that deep. The greatest part of it is the insane amount of things you can do to create your character, and you can actually make a truly unique looking character... unlike most MMORPGs. My favorite character thus far I have created is a Mutation Blaster called Jigowatt with (surprise) electrical powers. I will post a pic eventually of his greatness... but for now I cannot being that I am at work. Well that is it for now, I think I will go stand around and hope for someone to come in so I can sell them a phone. BaWoot.

What is up with MMORPG servers?

Okay, so I decided to pick up WoW again now that my HL2 phase is finished, as well as my GTA:SA phase. I am still partially in a KOTOR2 phase, but it is only off and on. Wow, is alot of acronyms in two sentences! ANYWAY, so I am playing WoW again as of Sunday night, not for a long time... then Monday I play a little as well, both my days off. I planned on playing all morning Tuesday though, before I had to go to work... but of COURSE I wake up extremely early, depriving myself of 3 or 4 hours of sleep, just to find that the servers are down for maintenance till about 2 or 3 in the afternoon! WTF? Now, certainly this could be just a coincidence, but it seems anytime I plan on playing in the morning... they are down for the majority of it. I don't know if they just WANT to piss off morning players or what, but they should really think about doing maintenance sometime in the WEE morning hours when less people are playing... of course that would make too much sense, so they don't. Seriously though, what freaking kind of maintenance requires 6+ hours anyway? Argh.

Anyway, I did my taxes today too, and all I can say is that I fucking hate dial-up connections. A 13 meg file(the indiana state tax prog that came as a free download with turbotax) took almost an HOUR to download! I seriously cannot stand this slow ass connection much longer, I don't understand why Loogootee can't get DSL or Cable. We have the potential and the hardware for both as far as I know, but none of the companies in town offer it! I am potentially trying to get a satellite connection going, thanks to my dad giving me his hardware... but we keep putting off putting it up, because it will be a bitch to get aimed and set-up, PLUS costs like 70 bucks a month... but since I am desperate I will probably end up paying it if it works even slightly better than this.

Ahhh to be in Sin City

Okay, so I went to see Sin City yesterday... and WOW. I mean, that movie was so damned stylish and cool, plus the stories in it were so old school and noirish... I mean, WOW. I don't want to give away any spoilers to the movie, but the acting was so bad in parts, it added to the feel of the film... the visuals were amazing, and the whole black and white with bits of color added SO much to it. I swear, all comic book movies need to be done as well as Sin City. ALSO, Jessica Alba and Brittany Murphy being in it AND being extremely hot made for an enjoyable experience as well. I really need to pick up a copy of the graphic novel and see just how well done it was though.

On a related note, I usually wait till the end of movies before walking out of the theater, this includes staying till the credits run... just to see if anything extra happens. In case you were wondering, nothing happened at the end of this one, so feel free to leave after the final scene... unless you are like me and stay anyway ^_^

Customers suck.

Okay, so today I was on break, and waiting to check out, when a customer that I had helped earlier saw me and said "I need a game out!" Well, being as that i am not an electronics associate anyway, PLUS I was on break I said "Sorry, I am on break." Then the moronic guy got mad and said he wanted a game out now, then some other guy started saying the same thing! I said again sorry, I am on break... I don't know where the electronics associate is, and they said well, get some one over here... to which I said again, I am on break. Then they told me to get my manager over there... and I was like.. no, I am on break. Then finally the elec. associate came up and helped them... but still I mean, do I go to their jobs, wait for them to go to break and say "Come on, get your windex and paper towels... these jerk booths don't clean themselves!"? I mean seriously. Assholes!

On another note, I am going to see Sin City tomorrow at the matinee... so hopefully it will be as good as it looks. If nothing else, a scantily clad Jessica Alba will be worth the $3.50 ^_^

Okay, seriously.

Okay, had a pretty interesting day today. I was going to lunch and when I got to my car, some old couple were loading some lame-ass concrete lawn statue into their big ass red truck parked next to my car. WHY they weren't putting it into the bed of the truck, I don't know... but whatever. So they are blocking the path to my driver door, so I decide to walk around the front of my car and get in that way... as I get closer, I notice they are having some trouble getting the thing in their truck, so I decide I am going to offer to help. Well, right as I was getting ready to ask if they needed help... the old lady loses control and falls against the open door of the truck and it FREAKING hits my beautiful car door and leaves this big ass scuff mark! WTF!? I mean seriously, why did that have to happen? I love this car so much... and lame ass people or things keep fucking leaving scratch marks and shit all over it! So anyway, I am basically taken over by shock and rage, and the old lady is like... "Oh... is it okay? It didn't hurt it did it?" And I was like, well YEAH... I am going to need your insurance info! So the old guy gets out his card and I try to find a pen or something, but of course can't... so I have to ask the guy for one, which I kind of think is funny... :) So I take his info down and called progressive and that old moron is going to pay for my door to be fixed... I mean WTF. Every car I have had before this, I never had a single problem with things happen to scratch it... but of course the one car I totally love, has to keep getting its ass kicked by dogs, magnets, and old people! ARGH! So hopefully they bodyshop can fix it and make it look like new again... I am hoping.

On an unrelated note, did anyone see the PSP-Terry Schiavo South Park on Wednesday? It was supremely hilarious and I agreed with it for the most part. I don't know why ANYONE would want to be kept alive with a feeding tube... So if I ever am in a persistent vegetative state... my readers, you have my permission to let my sorry ass die! ^_^

New Glasses...

Well, today I got new glasses... back to wearing them after about a year with contacts. I was getting pretty lazy, so I decided to get a pair again, since some days I didn't feel like poking myself in the eye and leaving things there all day... and having to deal with taking them out at night and such. I am assuming I am going to become more lazy now though, and will probably stop wearing my contacts all together now. Only time will tell. Also, my neck has been killing me for the past 4 days, to the point where I had to leave work early last friday. I don't know what is causing it, but today sucked major ass... aching pain all day. Laying down on the couch all night though seems to have helped, and I don't seem to be having as much pain as usual... with luck, tomorrow it will be nice and pain-free again!

On a scarier note, I recieved a call from my cousin today around 11am but was unable to answer it because I was at work... but when I went on break, I called my voicemail and found out my grandma was at the emergency room for pneumonia! I was more than a little freaked out and tried to find out what was going on, but got the runaround when I called the hospital, so I waited until I was off work and went to see her. Luckily she seemed fine for the most part, except for the oxygen mask and such... but they were saying she was doing pretty good. I really hope she starts getting better... I don't know what I would do if she was gone... She deserves to live for another 30 freaking years... she is just such a good person. Well, I am hoping for the best and am planning on going to see her during my lunch tomorrow... so that will be good.

Half-Life 2 is the lord.

So I started playing Half-Life 2 yesterday after finally buying it... and all I can say is HOLY SHIT. I mean seriously, this game so far freaking rules so much more than the first... and I have barely begun it. The physics engine in it makes for some fun puzzle solving, and I just got the gravity gun which lets me pick big things up and throw them at enemies... which all I can say is "sawblade + high velocity + zombie thing = FUN!" ^_^ On an unrelated note, I keep reading through my Love Hina mangas in random orders, and still love reading them. PLUS the PSP just plain rules... I just need to get myself a nice 1gig memory stick duo and start converting dvds to the mpeg4 format that the PSP reads so I can take my movies with me and watch them during my lunch.

First Post

Well, I am posting for the first time... I can assure you ahead of time that most of this blog will be fairly pointless, but I guess if you are bored you might find something interesting to read. I work in a customer service type job, selling cell phones, so I will most likely rant on here about stupid and funny customer stories from time to time. So anyway, prepare yourselves... the bleh has begun!