Yeah.

Well, I am apparently in a depressed mood... I don't really want to do anything, and nothing really seems worth it. Unfortunately for me though, regardless that I feel shitty, I will continue to go about my daily life as if it had a purpose, and even worry about things like money and such, even though I don't have a love life, which is the one thing I want. I really don't know what put me in this mood, but I'm here now. Yuffie seems insane, will not stop attacking/biting/clawing me randomly almost all the time, except for extremely rare instances when she will be nice and purr and lay around like a normal cat. Also, missing grandma a whole lot, keep wishing I had gone to see her more often, random things remind me of her, like tonight when I went to Subway(her favorite food place), and ordered, but felt shitty cause I wanted to get some for her too, and take it to her and talk to her, and I can't. Almost every night I end up thinking how much I want to go see her, and now I never will be able to again... I have her picture of me, elsie and clara up above my desk now, and I can see her smiling( in a picture that's fairly odd) anytime I want, and I can look to the left and see her "God bless america" craft thing she made shortly before she died... but it doesn't help... I keep thinking how I wish she could have lived to see me eventually marry and have kids so she could see them, and they could have met their grandma, and seen how great she was too... Beh... life just pretty much sucks. People keep telling me she lived a long life, and that's great and all and she's with god now, but its not really fair in my opinion... I mean if there was a god, why the fuck would he/she/it pointlessly take good people like her away from the people that love them? I mean, I was pretty much in denial the past few years, grandma being gone was not even a believable thing to me, i just assumed she would always be around. I escaped a good portion of reality for a few days while I read the new Harry Potter book, but now I am stuck back into reality without anything to get me out of it... My car needs service, the foglights have somekind of problem, i ran over a huge amount of spilled white paint, so my paintjob is ruined too... fuck it, im rambling... I guess I will just go try to sleep instead of worrying about this shit, sleep gets me away from things for a few good hours at least.

Holy Freaking Crap!

Uh... just go here.

http://www.icv2.com/articles/news/7176.html

Nuff said.