Videophile.

Okay, as most of you all know, I am quite the videophile and audiophile for that matter. I like to have things I am watching looking and sounding the best they possibly can, no matter what. This started back in the day with my Nintendo I guess, when I was but a wee lad not knowing how to hook a simple RF adapter into a TV with an older hookup. As time progressed, I kept trying to hook things up more and more, trying to get the stereo sound out of my old Super NES, and hooking it up with the AWESOME composite video cables. The one thing back in the day I couldn't do myself though, was have an awesome TV to match my need for awesome picture... but I managed with the old console TV's that were handed down to me when Grandma got a new one. Now, however... being that I am single and spend money pretty much only on myself... except for when I am with friends, and I don't mind paying for meals and such... my limit on an awesome TV was broken. Now I (unfortunately?) sometimes put almost TOO much into my TV experience... TiVo, for example... and the 2 large screen TV's I have had in the past... 4 years? Anyway, I hit a new high today, and got my new TV delivered, after I found a great deal on it on the net. It is an insane 62" a DLP, and it has HDMI support and of course HDTV support. By far, it is the most insane TV I have ever had, and I should really be in the other room watching it, but Jeremiah and Scott are playing XBOX 360 on it at the moment, so I felt like blogging. I don't know for sure if I should be worried when my TV is taller than me diagonally though.

On a second note, I will now add a few pics of my hair going the red it currently is, as promised.






Also on this note, it goes along with the way I seem to be changing who I am, so I will post that as well. Most who know me, know that my look was pretty much lacking as far as clothes go. I basically only wore t-shirts and khakis most of the time, alot of the shirts being Anime Central shirts or plain white shirts. Anyway, while I was at Amanda's parents this past week, Kade, Amanda, and I went shopping and they helped me pick out a few new sets of clothes that seemed to fit me. I personally have to say, I quite like the new ones I bought, and I think I actually look somewhat stylish in them as well. The strangest part of it all was that apparently I am supposed to wear a size large in shirts and such, and I had been wearing size XL which were basically hanging off me. I had no idea clothes were supposed to actually hug your body pretty much. It took a couple days to get used to, but it actually feels better wearing the correct size now.

Well anyway, hope everyone had a good thanksgiving... I think I am going to marvel at my new TV some more. ^_^

Gingervitis

Okay, the other night at Ian's, I decided to dye my hair red... after Erin had suggested it. I have never had any hair color except my natural color, but at one point I bleached it really blonde, kinda like what I had when I was a kid. Anyhoo, Ian did the dye job, and good god... my hair is REALLY red. As soon as Ian sends me the pics of it, or I get a good digital cam, I will post pics seeing as how my webcam apparently doesn't think that colors are necessary. The only weird part is that I feel like a Ginger Kid... and the red hair really sets off my pasty pale skin... so I look even weirder than usual. Oh well, it was fun, and I like it, and have always wanted to change to an odd (for me) color anyway. I think next time I am going to do a more extreme color though, like bright freaking anime red (which I really have ALWAYS wanted to do) or ice blue or something... in either case, if I do it... of course I will post pics of it too.

My exit.

Why is it I would have to fall in love with someone that doesn't love me? Why is it that girls want assholes instead of friends? What makes the guy that treats a girl like shit so irresistable to them? I can't be an asshole, nor do I want to be... yet, it seems unless I become one... I am destined to be alone all my life. People say there is someone out there, that I just haven't found her yet... but what if it already feels that I have? What happens when the person that is right for you is there, but you aren't right for her? Is it possible to be too nice? To give too much of yourself and that pushes someone away? Why should it be wrong to do everything you can to help people the people you care about? I feel like I am running in place, watching things go by, but never finding my exit. I can see it coming towards me, but it never reaches me. What do you do when you look and look and look for something to replace the feeling you already have, and nothing comes along, or nothing you try does it? People tell me to move on, that she is just messing with me. But how can I blame someone for how they feel? It is like blaming myself for feeling the way I do, but I know you can't just change how you feel because you want to. Nice guys finish last apparently. That is my best argument for there being no higher power. If there were something that could control how things happened, or could influence things, then I think life would be more fair. Why am I so fucking abhorrent? Why is there no woman out there that wants to be with ME? Why am I always so good as a friend, and nothing more? Maybe if I were a horrible friend, girls would like me? What does "some girl out there is going to be SOOOO lucky to have you one day" mean? Why don't YOU want to be that girl? I see the Austin exit ahead, 1 mile... and I run. I see another sign, Austin exit ahead, 1/2 mile... and I run. Then I see another sign, Austin exit ahead, 1 mile... and I run. I never get there. I keep running, and I don't know why I can't stop looking for my exit.